Have you ever been so angry that it seems like nothing can calm you down? It doesn’t matter what anyone says, nothing can provide relief to the intense rage filling up inside of you. I had a situation happen recently that really tested me y’all, I mean REALLY tested me. About two weeks ago at my church, my Pastor delivered a message titled ‘Dealing with Difficult People’. It was such a good message, but honestly one at the time that I hadn’t really fully experienced. I generally hate confrontation, hate arguing with people, and really do just want to get along with everyone. I’ve also been fortunate where I generally haven’t had to deal with anyone who has persecuted me, been ugly to me, or just out right mean. So while it was a great message, I didn’t think it was something I could put to use, until recently.
This week, I experienced a situation where someone said something derogatory and just plain out ugly about me. It was a situation where I walked in and heard it being said about me. I was shocked at first honestly, ‘wait, what?’, I thought to myself. To me it came out of left field. This was coming from a person who knew nothing about me, didn’t know me personally, but yet felt so freely to say such a disrespectful and ignorant thing about me. So, after the initial shock, then came the anger. I was angry. Beyond angry y’all. From the anger, then came sadness. Eventually, that sadness turned into hurt. From there, the anger returned and remained. Typically, when something pisses me off or hurts me, I get over it fairly quickly as I hate confrontation. But this was a different story. Y’all I went to bed that night mad and woke up the next morning still mad. You couldn’t tell me nothing. I was reminded numerous times that I am a Christian, the message about loving difficult people, turning the other cheek, and all the other stuff I’ve been taught my entire life. However, when it was time for me to show up, I responded with, “Nope, can’t do it, won’t do it, I don’t care.” I rolled my eyes so many times to those reminders, I’m surprised I can see straight today. That’s how angry and stubborn I was being. “Are you kidding me right now? Pray for this girl? Forgive this girl? You must be out your mind. She owes me an apology.“